"Everything that is new or uncommon raises a pleasure in the imagination, because it fills the soul with an agreeable surprise, gratifies its curiosity, and gives it an idea of which it was not before possessed. "
May 29, 2009
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Looking back
I’ve done so much thinking these last few days, and I have realized so much about myself and which path I want to take. I have so much I want to clear up with people, and so much baggage I want to get rid of. I feel alone honestly, but its not a sad loneliness, sometimes its better to be alone than to be surrounded by people who cant see past the horizon.
First thing I want to clear up for my own benefit. I do no trade friends for other friends or switch groups. I am the type of person who does not want a select group of friends like the majority of people do. I want to be able to associate with everyone and anyone. I believe, I truely learn from everyone I meet at least one thing. I also believe having a small group of friends hinders your ability to be able to do things on your own, to communicate with people outside that social group. I have never once traded my friends, there are reasons why I stopped hanging out with certain people. Maybe I was tired of being a third wheel, Maybe it was because your boyfriend was the main picture to you and you couldnt go anywhere without him, maybe i didnt like the way you treated people. There are numerous reasons for why I stopped hanging with people for a bit. Doesnt mean I dont care about you, all you need to do is ask me whats up and I’d tell you.
